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Monday, November 26, 2007
ya know, i think im obsessing abt death abit too much here ya. but yeah, this post will be abt death again.
anyhow, im sure u guys know of the dragonboat accident in cambodia. well, wad can i say, its jus plain unlucky lar, so many boats went out, and only ours happened to capsize. condolences to family members and frens of the 5 departed. saving grace? perhaps the fact that their last act was doing something they loved and was passionate abt.
and my 2 darlings, josh and sharon, happens to know some of the departed lar. ya know, i haven found the chance to talk to you guys yet, but my darlings, take it easy ya. i know anything that i say is almost close to useless lar since its so traumatic to suddenly lose frens but at the end of the day, moving on is more important ya.
anyhow, the main reason why im talking abt this is becos of wad i read in the papers. pple asking questions why they were not wearing life jackets and all. but the fact was that they were swept away by the current and pls, nobody stands a chance against strong currents even with life jacket on. so pls, stop pinning on the fact that they were not wearing life jackets lar, its nobody's fault and cos they wan to win so badly and bring glory to our country, thats y they ditched the life jacket lar. i mean, so many teams went out with no life jacket and yet they all returned safely. sometimes its jus that god wans to take them away and nothing can be done ya, no point blaming the usage or non usage of life jackets.
me, myself, im a kayaker and i more or less knows how treacherous the open water can be. but i believe in destiny too. which means to say, i take the necessary precautions, but if accident is to happen den so be it. no point blaming anybody at all.
wad i wan to say is, things are already bad as it is. i dun believe in finding who is or who isnt at fault. spare a thought for the departed and their family. is it really good to find out the main reason for the capsize and find a scapegoat for it? especially for something as unpredictable as the open waters, no matter how much precaution is done, it can still wipe u out with jus 1 stroke.
and wad of the team mates? ever heard of survivor's guilt? wouldnt they feel worse without all the probing into wad happened.
3 of my best frens are dragon boaters and they share a special bond with their teammates. of course, the national team would share a similar bond. jus imagine the agony and helplessness they have to go through when they saw their teammates swept away and couldnt do a damn thing to help. or when search and rescue was going on, they couldnt join in the search too. lastly, imagine their pain seeing their teammates' body being found 1 by 1 and knowing that could easily have been them too. the impact on their mental health is beyond words lar. im pretty sure they can do without all these publicity too. hopefully, they can move on and not develop survivor's guilt ya, push themselves harder and achieve glory for these fallen comrades.
lastly, i hope parents do not oppose their kids from taking part in water sports ya. this is jus 1 very unlucky incident. chances of it happening again is definitely zero lar. and i do not wish to see all the hard work done by SSC go down to waste lar. im a kayaker and i know of the risks im undertaking when i go out to sea and im sure the dragonboaters and all other sea sports enthusiasts realise wad they are getting themselves into. so pls, precaution is important but the power of destiny is stronger lar. if its meant to be, i could jus walk out and be struck by a falling lamp post too.
and since im on the topic of death. i jus read in Time abt moral dilemma and im posting this question to all of u.
'its war time, and u are in hiding with a bunch of pple from the enemy soldiers. if u are discovered, everybody in hiding will be killed. suddenly a baby starts crying and u are bound to be discovered by the enemy, only way to make the baby stop is to smother him to death. would u do it?'
nxt consider again, 'if the baby is ur child, would u do it? and if the baby is somebody else's but the parents are unknown and unfound, would u do it?'
i haven found my answer, let me know urs ya. but i guess this is one tough question to answer lar.
ya know, i think im obsessing abt death abit too much here ya. but yeah, this post will be abt death again.
anyhow, im sure u guys know of the dragonboat accident in cambodia. well, wad can i say, its jus plain unlucky lar, so many boats went out, and only ours happened to capsize. condolences to family members and frens of the 5 departed. saving grace? perhaps the fact that their last act was doing something they loved and was passionate abt.
and my 2 darlings, josh and sharon, happens to know some of the departed lar. ya know, i haven found the chance to talk to you guys yet, but my darlings, take it easy ya. i know anything that i say is almost close to useless lar since its so traumatic to suddenly lose frens but at the end of the day, moving on is more important ya.
anyhow, the main reason why im talking abt this is becos of wad i read in the papers. pple asking questions why they were not wearing life jackets and all. but the fact was that they were swept away by the current and pls, nobody stands a chance against strong currents even with life jacket on. so pls, stop pinning on the fact that they were not wearing life jackets lar, its nobody's fault and cos they wan to win so badly and bring glory to our country, thats y they ditched the life jacket lar. i mean, so many teams went out with no life jacket and yet they all returned safely. sometimes its jus that god wans to take them away and nothing can be done ya, no point blaming the usage or non usage of life jackets.
me, myself, im a kayaker and i more or less knows how treacherous the open water can be. but i believe in destiny too. which means to say, i take the necessary precautions, but if accident is to happen den so be it. no point blaming anybody at all.
wad i wan to say is, things are already bad as it is. i dun believe in finding who is or who isnt at fault. spare a thought for the departed and their family. is it really good to find out the main reason for the capsize and find a scapegoat for it? especially for something as unpredictable as the open waters, no matter how much precaution is done, it can still wipe u out with jus 1 stroke.
and wad of the team mates? ever heard of survivor's guilt? wouldnt they feel worse without all the probing into wad happened.
3 of my best frens are dragon boaters and they share a special bond with their teammates. of course, the national team would share a similar bond. jus imagine the agony and helplessness they have to go through when they saw their teammates swept away and couldnt do a damn thing to help. or when search and rescue was going on, they couldnt join in the search too. lastly, imagine their pain seeing their teammates' body being found 1 by 1 and knowing that could easily have been them too. the impact on their mental health is beyond words lar. im pretty sure they can do without all these publicity too. hopefully, they can move on and not develop survivor's guilt ya, push themselves harder and achieve glory for these fallen comrades.
lastly, i hope parents do not oppose their kids from taking part in water sports ya. this is jus 1 very unlucky incident. chances of it happening again is definitely zero lar. and i do not wish to see all the hard work done by SSC go down to waste lar. im a kayaker and i know of the risks im undertaking when i go out to sea and im sure the dragonboaters and all other sea sports enthusiasts realise wad they are getting themselves into. so pls, precaution is important but the power of destiny is stronger lar. if its meant to be, i could jus walk out and be struck by a falling lamp post too.
and since im on the topic of death. i jus read in Time abt moral dilemma and im posting this question to all of u.
'its war time, and u are in hiding with a bunch of pple from the enemy soldiers. if u are discovered, everybody in hiding will be killed. suddenly a baby starts crying and u are bound to be discovered by the enemy, only way to make the baby stop is to smother him to death. would u do it?'
nxt consider again, 'if the baby is ur child, would u do it? and if the baby is somebody else's but the parents are unknown and unfound, would u do it?'
i haven found my answer, let me know urs ya. but i guess this is one tough question to answer lar.
SKulLifIed @ 22:59
Monday, November 5, 2007
hello peeps, nearly been a month since i updated ya. not that im lazy, jus that theres really nothing of significance for me to blog abt. as always, life is good and hopefully its the same case for everybody i know.
anyhow, i resolved myself to blog today becos i know if i dun, wad im going to discuss will be jus another topic that i'll conveniently forget.
i dunnoe how much im suppose or not suppose to disclose. but i believe some u guys have heard of this guy committing sucide ytd morning after being bailed out by his father for drink driving. well, he happened to be a staff in my camp and although i dunnoe him personally or even rmb how he looks like, it jus shocked me lar. i believe everybody would be shocked lar, considering the magnitude of this thing. but wad i find shocking is not the fact that he was even joking with 1 of my frens on fri evening nor the fact that he has always been a happy go lucky guy from wad i hear, and everything given to him would definitely be 'ok; no prob and can settle'. (even pple like me have their problems lar). its the fact that everybody in camp jus carried on working like nothing ever happened that i find 'surreal'. i guess surreal would be appropriate ba.
the very least, he's a regular and therefore i would expect the regulars to at least be u know, kinda 'down' but well, everything jus continued as per normal. definitely there would be small talks among frens speculating abt wad exactly happened and why he did it. but other than that, pple jus carried on working; trainees continued to have lessons and drills were still being carried out.
den i suddenly remembered a chapter in this book called 'tuesday with morrie'. it recalled how this man called morrie discovered he had a terminal disease and when he left his doctor's office, he realised that everybody jus carried on with their lives. he was obviously devastated and when he left the doctor's office, he expected pple's life to stop and sympathize with his plight or even pity him but there was none of these. errands were still being ran, and the NYSE is still moving.
wad im trying to put across is that even though, out there somewhere, somebody is trying to cope with their own hardship, elsewhere, life jus carries on as if nothing happened. is a human life really that insignificant? i have always believed that everybody is useful in someways unbeknownst to themselves or others, but when a life gets taken away is it really that impossible for others to care or even note unless that person happens to be someone of great importance. no doubt, 99.99% of us wouldnt even bade an eyelid when someone dies unless we know that person personally and its human nature for us to react that way. well, i guess this point will nv have a clear stand no matter how hard i ponder since everybody has a different view with regards to this issue.
den wad abt the frens and relatives of the deceased? whos going to help them cope with the loss and how are they going to move on with their lives?
recently, josh had a fren who passed away in an accident and he's been rather traumatized by it. sharon and saf keeps telling him to get over it and we all know he has to. but it really isnt that easy ya, especially if its somebody u know. for us outsiders, its very easy for us to say get over it, nothing can be done cos we are looking at it from a outside view, and we understand that there are still work to be done, and i know josh understands that too, but wad abt the family of his fren? can they really move on?
if the above happened to me and i dropped dead all of a sudden (touchwood), i believe it wouldnt be that easy for my family and frens to jus move on, there are memories of that me that pple will suddenly remember and the more these memories come back, the sadder one would become even though we can nv abandon or even leave behind these memories. personally, i would be ultimately pissed if u told me to get over the death of somebody i know (touchwood). i have already lost somebody i know, and i wan to cherish wadever memories that i can remember. having somebody tell me to get over it is like rubbing salt into my wounds. i know its all out of consolation to ask somebody to move on, but wouldnt everybody wan to cling onto jus that last bit of the dead that they can find? even if its jus a memory that happened maybe 10yrs ago?
ultimately, i know we have to move on and that life has to carry on, but the least we can do is spare the family and frens of the deceased some time alone for them to gather their thoughts and pack up their 'spare baggage'. at the end of the day, i believe that they will find that little place in their heart to keep the deceased and all the fond memories while mustering the ability to carry on with their lives.
ok, i have blabbered on and on. i believe when i look back at this post, i probably wouldnt be able to understand half of wad i have typed and neither would i expect u guys who are reading it to understand. well, we'll jus leave it like that ba.
Cheerios =) no, im not depressed in any way although this post seems to indicate so.
hello peeps, nearly been a month since i updated ya. not that im lazy, jus that theres really nothing of significance for me to blog abt. as always, life is good and hopefully its the same case for everybody i know.
anyhow, i resolved myself to blog today becos i know if i dun, wad im going to discuss will be jus another topic that i'll conveniently forget.
i dunnoe how much im suppose or not suppose to disclose. but i believe some u guys have heard of this guy committing sucide ytd morning after being bailed out by his father for drink driving. well, he happened to be a staff in my camp and although i dunnoe him personally or even rmb how he looks like, it jus shocked me lar. i believe everybody would be shocked lar, considering the magnitude of this thing. but wad i find shocking is not the fact that he was even joking with 1 of my frens on fri evening nor the fact that he has always been a happy go lucky guy from wad i hear, and everything given to him would definitely be 'ok; no prob and can settle'. (even pple like me have their problems lar). its the fact that everybody in camp jus carried on working like nothing ever happened that i find 'surreal'. i guess surreal would be appropriate ba.
the very least, he's a regular and therefore i would expect the regulars to at least be u know, kinda 'down' but well, everything jus continued as per normal. definitely there would be small talks among frens speculating abt wad exactly happened and why he did it. but other than that, pple jus carried on working; trainees continued to have lessons and drills were still being carried out.
den i suddenly remembered a chapter in this book called 'tuesday with morrie'. it recalled how this man called morrie discovered he had a terminal disease and when he left his doctor's office, he realised that everybody jus carried on with their lives. he was obviously devastated and when he left the doctor's office, he expected pple's life to stop and sympathize with his plight or even pity him but there was none of these. errands were still being ran, and the NYSE is still moving.
wad im trying to put across is that even though, out there somewhere, somebody is trying to cope with their own hardship, elsewhere, life jus carries on as if nothing happened. is a human life really that insignificant? i have always believed that everybody is useful in someways unbeknownst to themselves or others, but when a life gets taken away is it really that impossible for others to care or even note unless that person happens to be someone of great importance. no doubt, 99.99% of us wouldnt even bade an eyelid when someone dies unless we know that person personally and its human nature for us to react that way. well, i guess this point will nv have a clear stand no matter how hard i ponder since everybody has a different view with regards to this issue.
den wad abt the frens and relatives of the deceased? whos going to help them cope with the loss and how are they going to move on with their lives?
recently, josh had a fren who passed away in an accident and he's been rather traumatized by it. sharon and saf keeps telling him to get over it and we all know he has to. but it really isnt that easy ya, especially if its somebody u know. for us outsiders, its very easy for us to say get over it, nothing can be done cos we are looking at it from a outside view, and we understand that there are still work to be done, and i know josh understands that too, but wad abt the family of his fren? can they really move on?
if the above happened to me and i dropped dead all of a sudden (touchwood), i believe it wouldnt be that easy for my family and frens to jus move on, there are memories of that me that pple will suddenly remember and the more these memories come back, the sadder one would become even though we can nv abandon or even leave behind these memories. personally, i would be ultimately pissed if u told me to get over the death of somebody i know (touchwood). i have already lost somebody i know, and i wan to cherish wadever memories that i can remember. having somebody tell me to get over it is like rubbing salt into my wounds. i know its all out of consolation to ask somebody to move on, but wouldnt everybody wan to cling onto jus that last bit of the dead that they can find? even if its jus a memory that happened maybe 10yrs ago?
ultimately, i know we have to move on and that life has to carry on, but the least we can do is spare the family and frens of the deceased some time alone for them to gather their thoughts and pack up their 'spare baggage'. at the end of the day, i believe that they will find that little place in their heart to keep the deceased and all the fond memories while mustering the ability to carry on with their lives.
ok, i have blabbered on and on. i believe when i look back at this post, i probably wouldnt be able to understand half of wad i have typed and neither would i expect u guys who are reading it to understand. well, we'll jus leave it like that ba.
Cheerios =) no, im not depressed in any way although this post seems to indicate so.
SKulLifIed @ 23:13